NIRVANA S4:E7

May 13 and April 10, 2023

Suddenly, our sailing season is over. As is the NIRVANA adventure—at least for me.

Will and I finished our three months of cruising in the Bahamas with two weeks in the Abacos, which included Little Harbor, Hope Town, Man-o-War Cay, and Green Turtle Cay. These were delightful islands but with a very different flavor, namely primarily white Bahamian islands that feel way more privileged and insular than most of the islands we visited. It’s astonishing how race, privilege, and class are so intertwined no matter where you go. That said, there is some fascinating history, most especially the rich boat building history on Man-o-War Cay, which has sadly almost disappeared. Also the presence of Hurricane Dorian, which devastated the Abacos in 2019, is still palpable.

Little Harbor

Hope Town

Man-o-War Cay

Mariah Maeve

We picked up our friend Sandy in Marsh Harbor for the last bit of cruising and the crossing to Florida. Thankfully, just before we left cell phone range, I learned about the birth of my granddaughter Mariah Maeve on April 6! At which point a pair of dolphins jumped across our bow welcoming her into the world. So suddenly I’m a grandmother as well.

The Crossing

The passage from Pensacola Cay to Fernandina Beach at the Florida-Georgia border was a whopping 330 miles and 53 hours: 70 miles across the Little Bahama Bank in relatively calm waters and 260 miles in open ocean. While the conditions were generally favorable, we experienced a little of everything—delightful sailing in fair winds and following seas with a full moon, demanding sailing in heavier winds and rolling seas, motoring in light wind and seriously rolling seas, a broken boom vang (again), and in the last two hours, wind and seas on the nose as the storm we planned to avoid approached. By all accounts, it was blissful, challenging, exhilarating, exhausting, and uncomfortable, in different measure, at different times, according to each of our experiences.

Transition Time

After our crossing, Sandy and I spent four nights ashore in a hotel while Will weathered a gale on a mooring as we awaited our flight back to Portland. Scrubbing off months of grime in a long, hot shower and sleeping in a large rectangular bed with crisp white sheets was nothing short of a miracle for this sailor. And time ashore in between the end of our trip and the return home was just what I needed to reflect, process, and write about our adventure together, which I do in more detail below.

Sadly, I returned to a house that was nothing like the way I left it when I rented it last fall. It took more than a week to clean, as well as to repair or replace what was damaged or missing. After two years of living mostly on the boat and renting my house, I am very happy to be home, where I’m reconnecting with my family, friends, and dance community and enjoying my own space.

Meanwhile, Will flew back to Florida and began his trip sailing back to Maine with various crew joining him along the way, as well as doing some solo legs. Despite ongoing issues with the boat that have slowed him down, he continues to love everything about the sailing life, including sailing offshore in open ocean.

With time apart, we’ve both been doing some serious introspection about what our future holds. As such, I just returned from a quick two-day visit with Will in North Carolina. After much deep and rich communication, we’ve decided to close this chapter of our journey together living and sailing on Nirvana. While we have deep feelings for each other, we both acknowledge that our lives are moving in different directions. Will’s home is on the water, and my home is on the land. We are ready to open a new chapter with blank pages yet to be written—together and apart.

Reflection

And now for some deeper reflection on the overall adventure, which I wrote a month ago in Fernandina Beach.

I’m someone who likes to reflect on transitions. It helps me to understand the significance of my experiences: thus, this blog. While there does feel like a distinct before we left for Bahamas and an after we’ve arrived back “home,” in another sense, I know that life is one continuous journey.

My uncle Roland Barth, who passed away a year and a half ago and was a lifelong sailor, used to ask, “On a scale of one to ten, how was it?” I believe this self-inquiry can be a useful tool to help uncover a bit to what I’m talking about. But there’s also a danger in doing so in that it has the potential of flattening the experience, shaving the highs and lows into flat peaks and valleys. To honor my dear uncle, I still choose to answer the question I know he would have asked. My answer is a 7.5, which, given the range of feelings I’ve had over these months, is higher than I would have imagined.

Roland was also an educator, steeped in the world of experiential learning who, among other things, served for many years on the board of Hurricane Island Outward Bound. As such, the other question he would also ask is, “What were the lessons learned from your experience?” The answer to this question provides more meaning in helping move forward during these transitions. But here too a danger lurks in drawing too many conclusions about the future based on the past, for in reality, we are always in transition and the only real time is the present. So perhaps, as Rainer Maria Rilke suggests, it’s more about asking the questions and swimming around in the soup of what comes up that insight comes.

Finding Home

What’s it all about, this life aboard a floating home? I’ve been asking myself this question for going on two years now. Since June, 2021, we’ve been living aboard sv Nirvana or sv Cascade in Italy, with only a few months’ break on land last spring when we house-sat for a friend and traveled out west. It’s what my grandmother would call a “peripatetic” life—one of her favorite words—which means moving from place to place.

So what does this say about “home?” Will, the architect, often paraphrases Gaston Bachelard from The Poetics of Space about the significance of the word home: “Home is a place that shelters daydreaming.” In other words, home is a safe place from which to explore…and presumably return. Yet when you’re living and traveling on a boat, you’re constantly exploring and, thus, daydreaming is not about dreaming at all but about living in constant flow. As for returning, there is instead a continual exploration from what is essentially home, so it’s both the safe haven and the journey all rolled into one.

Living on a boat is truly a different way of moving in the world.

The contrast between the stability of life on land—a house, say—and the motion at sea is profound. Literally, the boat is constantly moving, whether sailing at six knots or drifting around at anchor as the wind changes direction. The seas are rarely flat, so there’s an ongoing forward-and-back or side-to-side motion, or both. Sometimes the movement is gentle like being rocked in a cradle; other times it’s like being on a combination mini-roller coaster/tilt-o-whirl perpetual motion machine. And everything in between. On the rare occasion that you’re anchored in a totally protected harbor and there’s no motion at all, you notice it: “Oh right, this is what it feels like to be on land.”

To assemble meals, you pull food from a deep refrigerator or from behind cushions that serve as a couch, both of which can involve an archaeological dig. To use the toilet, you step into a space that doubles as a shower. The water is only hot when you’ve run the engine, or barring that, you hang a solar bag or use a hose in the cockpit. The water supply is limited to 60 gallons, plus what you can make with the water-maker, so you use it sparingly. And you constantly monitor your batteries to ensure the solar panels are feeding enough power to keep up with your electrical use, which is generally minimal.

It’s micro-house, off-the-grid living on the water.

What this way of life affords is the ability to experience and explore in ways that are simply not possible on land. As such, contact with the human-made land world has a much greater impact as it’s no longer the norm but more the exception. While the boat is, to be sure, a human-made object that requires constant care and attention, the sea and sky are just outside the companionway, laid out before you in a splendid expanse, meeting at the horizon. From this perspective, land is as close or as distant as you choose to make it.

There is something truly elegant and appealing about the efficient living space, small carbon footprint, and preservation of precious resources that boat life provides. And yet, after these many months, I’ve discovered I need more time on land to counteract time on the boat: walks ashore in the greenery of nature; buildings that shelter the elements; a soft, cozy chair in a room with a tall ceiling; a rectangular bed; a shower where the hot water washes over you in a constant flow; a flushing toilet. Call it the creature comforts, stability, and spaciousness of a land-based existence, which are fleeting on a boat where the only buffer between you and the elements is a fiberglass hull and a canvas dodger.

Still, when the sun penetrates your bare skin, continual breezes caress your body, warm water buoys your entire being, and wind fills your sails on a perfect reach, you feel held in the embrace of both your boat and nature in a state of true bliss that simply cannot be replicated on land.

Lesson Learned: Take some time in life to push the edges of your comfort zone and adventure out from the safe harbor of home. Only then will you discover the true meaning of home for you.

Responsibility

Here’s a different take on the word “responsibility”: the ability to respond to what’s happening in the moment.

Life on a boat is an exercise in constant responsiveness to the environment, which begins with the weather and sea conditions and extends to every other aspect of life that exists. The universe is constantly changing; so is the weather, your surroundings, the people you come in contact with, and your feelings. Just when you think you’ve found the perfect settled anchorage, a new weather pattern develops. At the intersection of the high- and low-pressure systems is weather instability, higher winds, bigger seas, perhaps rain.

At a calm anchorage, when the sun is shining down and a gentle breeze is blowing, you can become lulled into a sense of complacency as if it could go on forever. But this is simply not so. The weather is a complex, dynamic system that is only predictable to an extent. For what in the universe is fully predictable? At the sub-atomic particle level, Heisenberg introduced the Uncertainty Principle in 1927, which states that you can know when a particle will be at a certain location with 100% certainty or you can know where it is right now with 100% certainty, but you cannot know both at the same time. This is the current state of our knowledge about the time and space: despite our best efforts, it’s not entirely knowable or predictable by humans. That goes for subatomic particles, stars and planets, evolution, the weather, the economy, the fickle minds and hearts of humans—indeed, the universe.

As just one example, given the state of today’s technology and how it has infiltrated the world of sailing, it’s sometimes hard to remember this simple fact. As we devote ourselves to weather apps, plot courses on electronic charts that we believe to be accurate, and focus on wind, speed, and GPS signals as the boat bounds through the waves, we are seduced into thinking we can—or at least should be able to know or predict what’s next. This is a far cry from sailors of the past who determined their location using celestial navigation and “knots” tied onto ropes that they tossed over the bow and then counted at the stern to determine boat speed. Not to mention sailing in uncharted waters!

Part of sailing is not only accepting but embracing that despite our best efforts at control, we are in fact always in the flow. The crossing from the Bahamas to Fernandina Beach is a case in point—a true practice in response-ability. For me, sailing is and has always been a practice of dancing between surrender and control, with my comfort zone being more toward the control end of the spectrum. While I’m quite nimble at the helm and have excellent instincts when it comes to all things related to sailing, the unpredictability of the environment has been stressful for me. Will, on the other hand, has fully embraced living in flow on the boat, loving every minute of it, no matter what arises.

Lesson Learned: Accept that life is fundamentally unknown, try not to project too much into the future, and respond to what arises in each moment with grace, agility, intelligence, and heart. Plan when planning is required, but try not to have too many expectations for how it will turn out.

Relationship

For the past almost two years, we’ve been together in a small space virtually 24/7. So at the same time that we’re navigating the wind and waters, we’re navigating our relationship.

Life aboard a sailboat with a partner is an example of what my uncle used to call “relentless intimacy.” To address this, he wrote a book called Cruising Rules, a tongue-in-cheek account of how to navigate human relationships aboard a boat. The only cruising rule Will and I adhered to is that we “share the helm,” which means whomever is at the wheel gets to decide how we sail. We can and often do bounce ideas or suggestions off each other, which the captain-of-the-moment can choose whether or not to accept. That said, over time, we’ve become quite specialized in our roles. For the most part, we make a good team, although we definitely have our differences in sailing style. Accepting and appreciating those differences has been an ongoing practice.

While I tend toward planning, organization, and broad awareness, Will tends toward being in the moment, sensing the feel of the boat, and doing what needs to be done when the need arises. These differences are often complementary and can have a balancing effect on each of us. I notice when things need attention on the boat, and he’s happy to fix them. He notices when I spend too much time plotting courses, and I let go of some control. I organize and stow things in logical places, and he is coming to appreciate that this approach is helpful for finding things.

Over these many months, my emotional barometer has fluctuated between steady and rising slowly (appreciation), steady and rising rapidly (enthusiasm), steady and falling slowly (apprehension), and steady and falling rapidly (depression). A high can linger without a cloud in the sky, while at other times, lows float in unexpectedly on the wind. Will’s barometer, on the other hand, is steady and high most of the time, regardless of wind, waves, weather, or the state of various pieces of equipment on the boat that need attention.

Lesson Learned: In any relationship, accept the differences between you, be honest about your thoughts and feelings, and navigate the level of intimacy according to your own needs and desires.

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I’ve come to many of these realizations late in life and not without some serious intention. Thus, the title of this blog—surrender to the abundance—is a practice and aspiration for me.

And yet, I’ve noticed that when I’m truly honest with myself and others, and when I let go of control and expectations, that’s when the universe provides in unexpected ways. Like stating out loud that I needed a break from the boat and being invited to stay with Sylvia and Elza on Cat Island. I hope that by the time I lay my head to rest at the end of the day, literally and figuratively, I will have surrendered fully to the abundance that surrounds us all at every moment.

Nirvana S4:E2

(This epic poem is inspired by The Walrus and the Carpenter by Lewis Carroll and our last couple weeks aboard as we make our way south through North Carolina and South Carolina.)

The Sailor and Her Mate

The sun was shining on the sea
shining with all its might.
It did its very best to make
the Sailor feel delight,
and this was hard because she felt
somewhat of a fright.

The sea was wet as wet could be.
The sails were like a drum.
The boat it surfed just like a bird
On a near broad reach and run,
Threatening with every swell
To gybe the boom for fun.

The wind was blowing mighty fierce.
The seas were close behind.
You had to grip the wheel so tight
To keep from going wide.
The main was full, no reefs were set.
There were no reefs to tie.

She looked at him and he to her
And called on her reserves.
She closed her eyes and breathed some breaths
To calm her frazzled nerves.
He frolicked in the following seas,
Surfing in gentle curves.

“We should have reefed before we left,”
They rousingly concurred.
“Lesson learned for next time then.”
And not another word.
Yet brewing just beneath her skin
A fear as yet unheard.

“O Courage come and be with me,”
She spoke out loud to him.
“I do not want this sail to feel
So treacherous and grim.”
“It’s how it is, my love,”
He said, sporting a kindly grin.

The day it passed, the next arose
And off they set again,
An early morn, the offshore route
With wind behind, no rain.
“The seas are readily in hand,”
His confident refrain.

She fixed some lunch on the gimbled stove.
He relished in its taste.
She smiled at him with wheel in hand.
He looked her in the face.
The fear she felt the day before
Was almost all erased.

Approaching Charleston Harbor then,
The inlet close at hand,
He dodged a fishing boat ahead
Then fixed his course for land.
A huge container ship cruised by,
Not something he had planned.

He passed too close, the waves were rough,
Causing the boat to quake.
She looked on deck, the vang had snapped.
It was the second break.
Although he had replaced it well,
It could not take the wake.

They faced the wind and dropped the sails
Right outside the jetty.
Yet just a hundred yards ahead
The sea was calm and steady.
“Timing,” he said “is everything.”
But the break was done already.

He felt himself responsible and uttered this out loud.
He rowed ashore for penance then.
Her hot, wet tears they flowed,
Wondering inside if she was
Sufficiently endowed.

“The time has come,” the Sailor said “to talk of many things.
Of tides and winds and seas and swell,
And whether boats have wings.
Why she despairs when he delights
No matter what life brings.”

A sailor is a salty dog who’s out there for the pleasure.
Yet what brings joy to one man’s heart
Appears in different measure.
Enjoying the experience, it seems,
Depends a lot on weather.

And whether one can stretch one’s legs
And spend some time on land
To balance out the vagaries
Which sailors know first-hand.
To find a safe harbor where
One’s senses can expand.

For life aboard a boat, you see
Is not a life for all.
The ground beneath your feet, it moves.
The quarters are quite small,
And danger lurks around each bend:
A cosmic free-for-all.

Like when the anchor’s set at night
You watch it for a spell
To see if you are holding fast
Or drifting with the swell.
And if there’s no hot water left
You often frankly smell.

The bunk converges at the feet.
The head demands attention.
The windows drip, the cabin’s heat
Requires a minor intervention.
And each piece of gear you meet
Is stowed with great intention.

But when you cozy down at night
All safely below decks,
And brownies in the oven make
Boat life not so complex,
And sunsets in the cockpit have
Their magical effects,

It’s then that living on a boat
Becomes a grand parade.
The cockpit opens up the world
With every anchor weighed,
Horizon stretching all around.
No, then she’s not afraid.

You plot a course and follow true
As much as you are able,
Until the universe decides it’s time
To challenge all that’s stable,
Precisely when no compass course
Can help you to enable

The inner calm when shifting winds
Alert you to your senses.
When what you do and who you are
Become your best defenses.
To trust yourself above all else,
Accept all consequences.

“Let’s slow things down,” they both agreed
“Not like we’ve done to date.”
For both of them were out of breath
And neither of them late.
The morning of departure came
And they were struck by fate:
A passing boat in predawn dark
Collided, but did not wait.

“Sometimes this life is truly tough
And frankly isn’t fun.”
He looked at her with knowing eyes
But answer came there none,
For with each passing day ahead
She’d relished every one.

You can follow our travels on Instagram as well at natasha.salvo

NIRVANA S3:E4

September 27, 2022

Our journey south has begun—sort of—which is why we’re still in Season 3. After a three-day sail back to South Portland from Down East and a week of preparation, we left familiar waters and sailed five days south to Warren, RI, where we’ve been since Labor Day. We’ve been in the expert hands of Paul Dennis, the Freedom Whisperer, who has been working with us to repair and upgrade sv NIRVANA, the vessel that cradles and carries us into worlds unknown—The Big Adventure!

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It was the end of August and time to think about heading back to South Portland in order to be in Rhode Island the first week of September, which we’d lined up with Paul back in March. Before heading west, we decided to head east again from Swan’s Island to Frenchboro, a sweet island that was one of our favorites on our cruise last year. It being such a small island, we encountered a number of the same people we met last year. John, the coffee roaster from Michigan spends summers on the island with his family and delivers Lobster Love coffee to boats on his paddle board. One afternoon, we watched his son and friends jumping from the ferry dock! The island has a ferry that comes only four times a week, has no grocery store, and is largely preservation land, thanks to the foresight of people who care. The Island Market on neighboring Swans’ Island delivers food when needed, which is quite a service. We enjoyed a long hike to the far side of the island where we climbed the large rock isthmus with Mount Desert Island in the distance. One more overnight in Burnt Coat Harbor on Swan’s allowed us to visit the swimming quarry and get a few more Jonah crabs before heading back.

We left in dense fog for Monhegan, 46 miles to the southwest, motoring most of the way until the wind finally picked up, allowing us to sail the last hour or so. It was raining when we arrived, but we had the foresight to call ahead for a reservation at The Island Inn and had a fabulous meal peering out the window at our boat in the harbor. Leaving Monhegan, we checked our fuel to discover we had 1/8-1/16th of a tank, whereupon we immediately shut down the engine. When we left Swan’s, we were down to about a half a tank, but as the winds were predicted to be favorable for the next two days, Will wanted to hold off filling our tanks until we got back to Portland where he had a certificate for free fuel. That decision had us heading eight miles out of the way in very light winds toward the nearest fuel dock…until the wind picked up and we said, this is after all a sailboat, let’s just sail! It was truly a change of perspective, as we ambled along at 2-3 knots, half the speed we needed in order to make it back to Portland that night, as planned.

And so plans changed, and we decided instead on an overnight at Seguin Island, where we tacked upwind for the last hour, running the engine for a brief five minutes to pick up a mooring. The next day, we set off toward our home port, the winds teasing us all day as we sailed between 2 and 4 knots past Casco Bay. All the while, we were remembered the book we read, Penelope Down East, about sailing the coast of Maine in an engineless catboat. We were both grateful for our engine, as well as for the opportunity to do something we hadn’t set out to do, namely have the experience of getting from A to B without the use of our engine. The story could have had a romantic ending whereby we sailed into Portland Harbor, starting the engine only as we pulled up to the fuel dock. However, approaching Cushing Island as dark descended, sailing less than two knots, a severe thunderstorm was predicted and we broke down and called Sea Tow. We were hoping they would simply deliver us some diesel but that would have taken more time, so instead—I hate to admit this—we were towed into the harbor and up to the fuel dock! Well, the storm passed by us and the wind picked up, and as it turns out, we had about three gallons left in the tank. We chocked it all up to experience and motored to our cozy dock under the Casco Bay bridge in South Portland as night fell, relieved to be back.

Needless to say, the experience sparked a lot of conversation between us. From my perspective, I was initially focused on the “lessons learned” to “avoid” the experience in the future: 1) carry spare diesel, 2) keep the tank topped off, and 3) in addition to keeping track of our daily engine hours, keep a running total so we know how many hours we’ve run at all times. From Will’s perspective, he was initially grateful for the opportunity to experience something we might not otherwise have experienced, not something to be “avoided.” The next day, I approached his perspective and he approached mine, so eventually we arrived together, appreciating the communication it engendered between us, as well as the “learnings.”

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The next week saw us schlepping stuff on and off the boat, driving back and forth between my house, the boat, the hardware store, and the grocery store, countless times. One of the keys to living on a boat is having only what you need, while at the same time, having everything you might need or want, all within the confines of 36’. We sorted through books and clothes, stocked up on some favorite food items, and brought along, among other things, the water maker Will had been storing in the basement in case we might want to install it one day. We replaced our mattress with new foam and in so doing, were able to pass along our somewhat worn but still usable thick foam mattress to our boat neighbor Rick, a lobsterman who has been fixing up his small sailboat and living aboard since the spring. To thank us, the next day he showed up with six hard shell lobsters, which we shared with friends and family over the next two days. Over the course of the week, we enjoyed watching many large boats come and go, always a fun pastime.

We visited our friend Alan who had just sold his boat and was getting rid of his chart books of the Bahamas, which he passed along with plenty of advice and stories. OK, this is getting more real by the day! Among the stories was how great it was to explore the islands on his folding bike. “Oh, is that something you want to sell?” “Sure,” he said, and on the spot, we decided to trade my electronic keyboard for two folding bikes in the precious space in our aft cabin, aka the “garage.” I had initially rejected the idea of bringing the single folding bike Will already had, but with two, this would add a whole new level to our exploration! Getting them on and off the boat in the dinghy will be the next challenge.

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A bunch of farewells later and we were sailing out of Portland Harbor on Sept 1 bound for Rhode Island. We passed lighthouse after lighthouse, rounding Portland Head Light, heading in a new direction and unfamiliar waters—namely South! I couldn’t help feeling a bit overcome by the momentous journey we were embarking upon.

Our first destination was the historic Isle of Shoals, a lovely archipelago off the coast of Portsmouth, with half the islands in Maine and half in New Hampshire. On Day 2, we tried out our radial spinnaker for the first time to try and catch some speed but ended up motoring all the way to Cohasset in no wind—grateful for the engine, and fuel! Rounding Gloucester and seeing the Boston skyline in the distance was positively surreal.

Day 3 was another day of motoring along the Massachusetts coast to the Cape Cod Canal, where we arrived at precisely slack tide, as planned, and saw 8.5 knots as we approached Buzzards Bay as the current turned in our favor. Our overnight anchored off the beach in Woods Hole was delightful, including a fantastic meal at a local restaurant. On Day 4, the winds allowed us to mostly sail across Buzzards Bay to the Sakonnet River in Rhode Island, then a downwind leg up the river to an anchorage called Fogland. Rain was predicted for the next day but held off long enough for us to motor the last leg, under two bridges, past Bristol, to the head of the river to Warren River Boat Works, which would be our home for the next month. Forgive my redundancy, but I’m strangely fascinated by all the lighthouses along the coast, which have guided mariners for centuries, as well as the audacity and ingenuity of man to have engineered and built so many bridges that span so many bodies of water.

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We feel incredibly fortunate to have found Paul Dennis, who is not only a Freedom expert who used to build these boats but is a mentor to so many Freedom owners out there as he generously shares his knowledge, wisdom, and advice on the phone all day long. Every day, he regales us with stories about the intricacies of Freedom Yachts, which we find fascinating. Although he certainly can and does get his hands dirty, his expertise is in knowing exactly what needs doing and then orchestrating the complex sequence of events to make things happen in a timely manner, including hauling the boat for a week at the nearby small, family-owned Stanley’s Boatyard. We had a long list of things we needed to have done, a shorter list of things we would like to have done, and an as yet unknown list of things Paul recommended that we have done. On day one, we let him know that Will was not only willing but eager to do a lot of the work himself, so under Paul’s watchful guidance and eye, and with the use of his shop and a loaner truck, we’ve been able to accomplish all that and more! In this cozy three-slip boat yard, we were helping with dock lines and laughed out loud that it is big enough to spring on us another Freedom named Nirvana and another Natasha! This just seems the norm here: tiny little Bristol/Warren is home to Herreshoffs, Bristols, Shannons, Tillotson Pearsons, Aldens, and Dyers, to name a few. It seems only fitting that John, one of the two Herreshoff boat-building wiz-kid brothers, did his work blind since age 15.

For the boat geeks out there reading this, we’re repairing numerous issues with the boom and mast, including replacing the wires and adding insulation so they don’t clank inside the mast while we sleep. We’re getting a wind instrument that actually works and ties in with our autopilot, imagine that! With the help of Paul’s welder, we’ve repaired some broken fittings on the boom and are upgrading our outhaul, reefing system, and lazy jacks to catch more of the sail when it drops. We’re replacing halyards and lines, upgrading the original, difficult-to-operate rope clutches, and adding a flag halyard, which Freedom yachts don’t have because they have no stays! In fact, you need to fly a courtesy flag when you enter a new country, and we just bought one for the Bahamas. We’ve replaced two leaky opening ports, and repaired two more with spare parts from Paul’s shop. And we will soon replace the hazed fixed ports with tempered glass that we can actually see out of, as well as two leaking hatches, one of which is over our bed in the v-berth. What an upgrade all this will be!

We’ve repaired the rudder, which had too much play from day one and involved removing the steering quadrant, dropping the rudder, modifying and refitting the bushing, and replacing the rudder and quadrant. How, you might ask do you “drop” the rudder with its long rudder stock? The first time, the travel lift lifted up the boat. The second time, Will dug a hole under the rudder in the gravel! “Caribbean style, mon,” according to our neighbor Steve. We’ve sanded and painted the bottom, and raised the waterline so we have less visible marine growth. At Paul’s recommendation, Ethan the mechanic replaced the worn propeller shaft, replaced our dripping stuffing box with a dripless shaft seal, and replaced the raw water intake thru hull and strainer with a larger one. All this means no more water in the bilge where you don’t want it and more water going through the engine where you do. We’ve installed a temperature gauge and replaced the worn wire from the engine to the batteries. And if all that wasn’t enough, Will, the dear, removed the head holding tank and is replacing it with a tank of the exact same size that just happened to be hanging around Paul’s shop. His shop just happens to have parts like custom bearings and mastheads, and doors and antique faucets that fit our boat and which he is happy to be rid of, so we couldn’t have gotten work done at a better place. The used watermaker which had no backstory miraculously worked on the second try, and the new water tank is perfectly sized to take up no existing storage space. It will hold the fresh water that we will be making using  reverse osmosis  that turns salt water into fresh! Friends tell us it’s a game changer as it means less worry about running out of water and more showers!

In between all the work, we had a chance to visit the Herreshoff Museum in Bristol on the site of the former Herreshoff Manufacturing Company, which produced some of the finest steam, sailing, and racing vessels ever made, dating back to 1878, including numerous America’s Cup winners. It was truly a thrill to see a warehouse full of Herreshoffs, including a “catamaran” designed by Captain Nat in the early 1900s, as well as all of his hand-made models that he used to design his boats. We also got a tour of a “food incubator” in Warren that has been running for ten years, offering food entrepreneurs the opportunity to create food in one of four impressive commercial kitchens. Warren, it turns out, is full of great restaurants within a short walk from where we’re docked.

We had a visit from my dear friend from Junior High School who just moved back east with her fiancé, as well as my aunt and uncle, whom I haven’t seen in years. I also went back to South Portland for a week to enjoy my house for the first time in over a year because it’s been rented, find new tenants while we’re away for the winter, and visit family and friends once again. And after months of waiting, I also picked up our brand, new sails from our sailmaker in Boothbay! Our dear friend Rebecca offered to drive with me back to RI with the sails, and we enjoyed the spectacle of Water Fire in Providence before she headed back with my car.

One more week of boat work and we should be ready to set sail toward the Bahamas, which we expect to take us a couple of months as we slowly make our way down the coast, day sailing, heading into the Intercoastal Waterway from Norfolk to Beaufort, and dodging hurricanes, as required. But that’s the future, and we’re in the now, so look for another blog when the now is the past. Until then, all things continue to unfold magically in front of us.

NIRVANA S3:E1

Jun 26, 2022

The beginning of the sailing season aboard sv NIRVANA has officially begun! After five weeks at Spring Point Marina in South Portland, we finally untethered from the dock on June 16. Living aboard at the marina allowed us to enjoy the proximity to Bug Light, downtown Portland, friends, and family, as well as to ready the boat for our second sailing season in Maine.

Our first cruise is an overnight to Jewell Island with our new friends Bill and Kristin, whom we met at DiMillo’s last winter. Although neither of them has much sailing experience, they bought a 49’ boat a year ago and have been rebuilding nearly every system and lived aboard most of the winter. We leave in a thunderstorm, have a short sail after the weather cleared, and then pull into the anchorage just as more rain descends. It’s fun showing them our ropes, grilling fish in the cockpit, feasting on fresh bread and pancakes, hiking around the island, and climbing the tall tower that gives a wonderful view of Casco Bay. Let the summer games begin!

We take various friends out for a sail locally in Casco Bay, including a birthday cruise to the Goslings and taking the dinghy ashore on the white sand beach on Long Island. After walking across the island, we discover a small café and buy a blueberry pie, which we share in the cockpit.

As we’re raising sail on the way back, we lose our jib halyard up the mast. Damn! Next day, Will makes arrangements with Bill to meet us at Knight’s Landing in South Portland to help haul him up the mast in the bosun’s chair to retrieve it. Will was calm and steady, and I was surprisingly nerve-free despite his height of at least 35 feet up.

Knight’s Landing is a little hidden gem under the Casco Bay Bridge that connects Portland and South Portland where Will spent most of the summer two years ago with his former boat. The dock has a bird’s eye view of the oil tankers coming and going so has a very industrial feel and is a local haunt for those in the know, especially because you can stay overnight for free. We meet the usual cast of characters—a pair of fishermen brothers, one of whom has been living on his scrappy, demasted boat and gives us a half dozen crabs from his brother’s lobster boat; the guy who runs the South Portland Sailing School and happens to have bought our old mooring; and none other than Simon and Jill, my son and daughter-in-law, doing a Solstice sunset cruise on Jill’s boat, On the Rocks Cocktail Cruises. Jill got her captain’s license two years ago and is running her boat for the second year, this time with a liquor license.

We spend a few low-key nights at Clapboard Island just across from Falmouth Foreside where I used to keep my Sabre 28 sailboat. Never having gone ashore here, we discover a sweet writer’s hut owned by the Maine Coast Heritage Trust, where we come across a book with a chapter dedicated to Alna, Maine, the town where my relatives have lived since the 1940’s.

One morning we’re invited aboard the Linda Kate, a 40’ fishing boat whose captain Will got to know at DiMillo’s as he was preparing his boat for the season. In addition to lobstering, his boat is now outfitted for purse seining and scalloping to diversify his catch. His wife is one of the newest aquaculture farmers in the bay growing and harvesting sea kelp. He invites us aboard for a day of fishing and we readily accept. We wake at 5:30 AM and watch as they haul the huge net aboard for a day of pogie fishing. With two crew, Will who is willing to get his hands dirty, and me, the film crew, we have an extraordinary experience fishing for pogies, which is one of the primary bait fish for lobster. It takes a while to locate a school among the other fishing boats, but eventually he spots one based on the oily purplish water and “flips,” not to mention the seals who are circling for food. With great finesse, they drop the net being careful not to catch a foot in the line and begin to circle up the fish when the captain realizes he didn’t attach a line, so out pour all the fish! With the assistance of a hydraulic winch, they haul the net, carefully packing the floats and metal rings so it can again run free. Another hunting expedition and we regroup around the same school, set the net again, and this time, haul eight barrels, only half of the legal catch for each boat. We are regaled by his crew who is extremely knowledgeable about purse seining and lobstering and is on the verge of launching a new sustainable fishery business he’s invented for crabs, squid, and whelks. Impressive!

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But lest you think that our pre-sailing season has been all smooth sailing, let us now share some of the experiential learning that has led up to our casting off from the dock. When it comes to boat preparation, I am someone who emphasizes planning, list-making, and methodical progress, and I dive in only when I feel sufficiently prepared. But how prepared can you really be when there’s still so much that’s unknown and we’re both still learning? Another approach is to simply “go for it” and figure it out as you go. Obviously, there’s a place for both, especially when so much depends on the unpredictable nature of nature, humans, and the material world!

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Our planning starts in February when we order a composting toilet kit to replace our head to avoid having to find places to pump out our holding tank while cruising. Will had experience with one on his previous boat and was a big advocate, so he dives in carving a 5-gallon bucket to fit the “pee diverter” and then carving a wedge out of the bottom of the bucket to place it closer to the curved wall of the hull. Next comes removing the existing head and hoses (thank you Will for taking on that nasty job), installing the bucket and hoses, and fitting a teak plywood cover over the whole area, complete with hinged openings for trash and the composting material, in our case, coffee chafe. This stuff is a bi-product of the coffee roasting process and can be obtained in huge quantities for free from our local coffee roaster in Portland. It’s light and fluffy, absorbs moisture, and you guessed it, smells like coffee, which is pretty sweet when blending with poop to absorb not only the moisture but the smell.

The last step is deciding what to do with the pee, which when separated from the poop doesn’t smell either, as long as you empty it regularly. Normally, composting toilets—or more accurately, dehydrating toilets—collect pee in a container that you then have to dump overboard, which, in case you’re wondering, is safe because it’s inert. In our case, after much debate, we decide to attach a hose to the diverter and plumb it directly into the waste hose below the sink, and out it goes with an electric pump. So now, we push a button to flush the pee directly overboard, along with a splash of fresh water we recycle from rinse water in the galley. What a great system! Well, except that sometimes water or pee spills over into the coffee-chafe-covered poop making it soggy. 😦 Will has since modified the diverter and extended the hose so it can hold more liquid before being pumped overboard.

We also installed a salt water foot pump for the galley sink for a first rinse of dishes. This hose connects to the through-hull that used to serve the head. This will save us a lot of fresh water and the “free” saltwater allow for generous rinsing of our cook- and place-ware.

Life is an experiment.

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It’s April 15 and time to leave our winter slip at DiMillo’s and motor a mile across Portland Harbor to a temporary mooring at Spring Point in South Portland where we planned to leave the boat while we were gone for a few weeks out west. The mooring ball is due to go in a few days later, so we head to Spring Point Marina in South Portland for a couple days. We’d removed the shrink wrap a week earlier, retrieved the dinghy from the house, and changed the oil in preparation for the short trip across the harbor. After a winter of sitting idle, the engine fires up on the second try so we’re pleased and set off. Fifteen minutes later, a loud alarm sounds. Having just changed the oil, our minds immediately go to the oil pressure alarm, until smoke starts billowing out of the engine compartment. The sails aren’t bent on, so stopping the engine in the middle of the harbor doesn’t seem wise. The thought occurs to snag a mooring ball or hail a passing motor boat, but Will is busy trying to see what’s wrong and the boat hook is still stowed below. Instead, we push on for another ten minutes until we reach the dock, smoke pouring from the engine, neither one of us able to imagine what the cause might be.

Will reaches out to our friendly mechanic Alec whom we met in Belfast and has been beyond helpful to us as we continue to learn about our diesel engine. His first question is, “Did you open the raw water sea cock?” “SHIT!” we both utter out loud when we realize that we’d made a major, rookie blunder. The all-important sea cock supplies sea water to the engine to help cool it while it’s running, along with fresh water coolant. No sea water and the engine overheats in a hurry, along with burning out the impeller, the little rubber gadget that circulates water through the engine, and melting the plastic 60-degree exhaust. OUCH! That is a painful learning experience that we will never repeat. The good news is that in the process, we learn how to replace the impeller, inspect and clean the heat exchanger, and flush the hoses of impeller debris, of which there was plenty.

All these items back to square one and the sea cock now in the open position, we ready ourselves to motor ten minutes from the dock to the now-in-place mooring to leave the boat while we’re away on the West Coast. And wouldn’t you know it, the alarm goes on again, despite the care we had just given our poor engine, but we leave the next day and there’s no time to diagnose it. Upon our return, we run the engine a third time to haul the boat so we can clean the bottom and replace the zincs, and the alarm sounds again! The marina staff brings the boat back to our slip.

We add coolant, remove and test the thermostat, which is functioning as it should, and discover a broken seal on the radiator cap. We give it one more test, revving it up in reverse at the dock and using our new laser heat gun to test the temperature throughout the engine. No overheating! Next day we take it out circling close to the marina for 30 minutes and still no overheating.

We’re feeling both relieved and emboldened by our newfound understanding of our cooling system and decide to take on the long overdue task of flushing the icky brown-green coolant and replacing it with the recommended extended life red stuff. Two days and five flushes later, we are savvy and quick at this procedure, our coolant is now a rosy red, and both we and our engine are calm, cool, and collected. The experiential learning continues!

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We’re getting ready to move onto the boat and decide to install our bimini and dodger. The bimini had eluded us when we bought the boat so we never used it. This year we decide to try it again and realize the deck fittings that the thing attaches to were installed backwards such that there was no way it could attach. We reverse the fittings and voila, the bimini now slips directly into the slots as it should.

We move on to a minor repair of the cracked plastic windows on the dodger and install it, leaving two of the hooks detached so the repair can dry. That night, there are 35 mph winds. Next morning, we come back to the boat to a shredded dodger and a sinking feeling. We’re already planning on buying new sails later in the season and found a one man shop in Boothbay who still measures sails in the old-school way by stretching them out on the floor and with a block and tackle. We weren’t planning on a new dodger too, but I guess it aged out and needed replacing.

We race to find someone to get started on it before we leave for the west coast only to find the businesses are too busy or they quote outrageously high, though we find another guy who agrees to do it for almost half, but it won’t be ready until mid- to late-June. We get a call in early June saying he’s started making the dodger but is encountering issues because the old once didn’t quite fit the frame, so he unexpectedly abandons the project in the middle, refunding our deposit and giving us his work on the almost finished roof. We scramble and by stroke of luck find an 80-year-old guy who agrees to pick up the job in the middle. Amazingly he had the time and was up for the challenge. Now that’s our kind of guy! We pick up the dodger any day now and will install the snaps ourselves to make sure it fits. And the adventure continues!

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Next on the list is replacing our rusty, plastic-coated, wire lifelines with Dyneema, a braided rope made of fibers that are stronger than steel, making it an excellent choice for this application. We had bought the stuff on sale last year and had it in our “project box,” but first we had to learn a Brummel splice and buy the proper Swedish fids. Amazingly, when we were in Italy, out of the blue my brother Tyler said one day, “Want to learn a Brummel splice?” “We sure do!” So he taught us the basics and we got to practice a few splices on some line he had laying around.

However, as we find out, doing a single splice is significantly easier than figuring out how to turn pieces of Dyneema into lifelines! This project turns out to be far more challenging than we imagine as we puzzle through how to attach the lines to the stanchions when you need two ends to do a splice, making them the right length given shrinkage, and finding the right hardware for tensioning the lines. After much discussion and many YouTube videos and days of experimentation later, we’re now pretty proficient at the lock splice and bury, and we’ve exercised our hands-on spatial geometric reasoning to create eight beautiful new lifelines and cross-bracing to stabilize our davits! Through this process, we’ve learned a lot about how differently we approach such projects and the importance of hands-on experiential learning.

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And if all that wasn’t enough, one night, we return to the boat to the sound of the CO alarm. Mystified, we open the hatches and wait for the alarm to turn off. On the next night sleeping aboard the boat, we’re suddenly awakened by the alarm again. Now we’re getting nervous as we know carbon monoxide is an invisible killer, thus the alarm. But we’re not burning any fuel so can’t imagine what it could be. We open the hatches and sleep with extra blankets. This happens several more times until we learn that charging our lead acid batteries generates hydrogen gas, which the CO monitor registers along with CO. Common knowledge? Not for us, but now we know and bring the alarm in our cabin instead of right over the batteries where the hydrogen likely won’t reach. Experiential learning strikes again!

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All this is to say that along with significant planning, list-making, and doing on both our parts, there’s been plenty of experiential learning along the way—about our boat, about our process, about each other, and about ourselves. We’ve appreciated all of it as we launch ourselves into our new season aboard sv NIRVANA for another summer of sailing and adventure, the outcome of which is as yet unknown!

Cascade II S2:E4

Jan 16, 2022

Where to begin? We have both been sick, probably with COVID though we can’t be sure due to our negative tests before Christmas and again yesterday. We now realize it was probably too early and too late to give positive results. Will has been trailing me by five days with hacking cough, occasional fever, and fatigue. We have definitely not been ourselves and as such, have retreated into our own worlds, which feels strange after so much connection over the past year and a half. Eating, grocery shopping, and getting outside as much as we have energy for has been the order of the day. We did share a new year’s day lunch outside with Bill and Nancy, and had a long chat in the cockpit with our neighbor Debbie, a solo British sailor/pilot, who shared her homemade mincemeat pies.

Still, we wanted to get to Syracuse, so we waited for some wind and took off on Jan 4 for a ten hour sail up the coast in two hops. Needless to say, going from more or less lethargy to sailing the high seas was quite an energy shift!

The winds were strong from behind with 3 – 4 foot seas, but the boat handled well as we surfed down waves, sometimes hitting ten knots! Arriving in Portopalo, we found our anchoring spot but struggled for some time trying to deploy the anchor with the windlass, despite our earlier lesson. We were about to resort to picking up a huge mooring ball in the fishing harbor (a definite no-no as Nancy said, “Don’t anchor over there!”) when Will finally figured it out. Not everything is obvious on a new boat. That night, starving and exhausted, we feasted on the most delicious spaghetti a la Bolognese I’ve ever eaten, prepared by Will. The next day the wind and seas were a bit more benign, and we had a glorious sail into Syracuse, with snow-covered Mt. Etna looming over the bay of the ancient city of Ortigia, its huge fort standing sentinel. It made me wonder what it must have been like for the Greeks to sail into the same bay back when Syracuse rivaled Athens in population and power.

The marina in Syracuse is tiny compared to Marina di Ragusa (MDR) with only about 30 slips and almost all the boats wintering over with no one living aboard. We did meet one couple—a Norwegian and a Czech—who like to come hang out on their boat although he has an apartment. Otherwise, it’s pretty desolate and not at all the feeling of the live-aboard community in MDR. The docks are quite exposed as well, such that the water splashes over them when the wind is up and the boat rocks gently with the swell. We’re not in Kansas anymore, Toto!

The first day we had to explore was Epiphany, the twelth night of Christmas, the night the Three Kings brought gifts to Jesus in the manger. In Italy, they celebrate with stockings full of sweets for the children delivered by a witch. For us, it’s been an epiphany of sorts as well, as we wander the streets of this ancient city and reconnect with the larger world through place and time.

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We walk the narrow streets and stumble upon the Temple of Apollo, a ruin in the middle of a large piazza with several Senegalese street vendors selling plastic sneakers. We turn the corner and discover a wonderful outdoor market with fresh vegetables, fruits, fish, nuts, and more, We buy pistachios, pecorino with pistachios, blood oranges, and artichokes.

We wander across the bridge past the fishing boats to Syracuse to explore the very protected marinas on the north side of the island of Ortigia. We are invited aboard a 50-foot sailboat owned by an Italian who speaks terrific English; for once we don’t have to struggle to speak and understand.

We meander into the old city and come upon the huge Piazza del Duomo, with hundreds of people milling about dressed in their holiday clothes. We explore the Chiesa di Santa Lucia, named after the martyred saint from Syracuse, who pledged herself to God but was nonetheless betrothed to a wealthy man. When she announced her plans of distributing her dowry to the poor, she was sent to a brothel to be defiled, but she would not be moved, even by a team of oxen. When the order then came for her to be burned at the stake, the wood would not catch fire. So she was stabbed in the neck, but not before her eyes were gouged out and set upon a plate; thus, she is the saint of sight and light. Well, I guess she does deserve a church or two given all she went through! I am struck that generations of Christians worship such violent idolatry, but I guess they come by it honestly with the ultimate idol being Jesus on the cross.

We come upon the Piazza Archimede with the Fontana di Diana, an elaborate fountain dedicated to the Roman goddess Diana surrounded by nymphs splashing in the water. Diana, the Roman version of the Greek goddess Artemis, is the goddess of the hunt, wild animals, fertility, and the Moon, daughter of Jupiter, and twin sister of Apollo, so yeah, a badass kinda gal.

And let’s not forget the Greek mathematician, physicist, engineer, astronomer, and inventor Archimedes from Syracuse. This guy had most of mathematics and a whole lot of physics figured out by 212 BC when he died—calculus, geometry, pi, the infinitely large, the infinitely small, the lever, center of gravity, buoyancy, the screw pump, and mechanical pulleys, among other things. You just don’t meet guys like that these days, now do you?

Instead, as we lunch on caponata and pasta, we are accosted by a Senegalese clad in a necklace of colorful bracelets and several wooden sculptures he wants to sell us. We tell him we live on a boat and have no room for such things and engage him about where he’s from. “You know where I’m from,” he says with scorn. It turns out that in 2021, Italy accepted almost 60,000 refugees and asylum seekers. We try to tell him about Portland, Maine, which welcomes refugees, but after five minutes, he leaves in a huff, apparently offended that we wouldn’t buy anything, given his status. I am very sorry for your plight sir, but I didn’t ask for any trinkets.

On the way back to the boat after a long day, we walk along the water and come across the Fonte Aretusa, where the nymph Aretusa, the Greek patron of Syracuse is supposed to have returned to earth from the underworld. Because of her beauty, the river god Alpheus fell in love with her, but she vowed chastity in service to her goddess Artemis (see above) and asked to be saved. Artemis created a cloud around her so she couldn’t be found and eventually she turned into water. Meanwhile Alpheus turns into water as well and they merge. Hmmm, that’s not exactly how I wanted to story to end.

Along the public pier we see a large boat called ResQ People (click link if you’re interested), launched in August, 2021, in a humanitarian effort to rescue the many refugees who flee their countries by boat in the Mediterranean and often die in the process. Since 2014, 20,000 people have died at sea or are missing in their attempts to flee their countries to seek asylum. Since August 2021, the ship has rescued 225 men, women, and children. Thank you wealthy patrons of Florence!

From the ResQ People website

All this on Epiphany. It’s a lot to take in.

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As the days pass, we walk through the new part of Syracuse, which feels dirty and unkempt with odd-colored buildings that offend my eye. Dogs poop on the sidewalks, many buildings are derelict, and garbage litters empty lots. We inspect the marina that was never built and learn from a local resident that “politics” was responsible, and the public money that was given was stolen. We learn from the lovely couple that runs the chandlery, and later from the manager that Marina Yachting, that Marina Yachting where we are staying has been without a license renewal from the city for two years, which explains why the owner is reluctant to put more money in it to keep it up—it could be taken away at a moment’s notice.

We visit one of the most acclaimed archeological museums in Europe, which takes us on a walk through time from “prehistory” to the Greek and Roman periods in Sicily where we literally watch technology, architecture, and humanity unfold, witnesses to human evolution—from the early vague resemblances of stone tools to iron blades, metal belts, and what look like safety pins; from vessels with the merest gesture of pattern to decorated vases with elaborate scenes of chariots and lovers; and from dwellings carved into hillsides to ruins of gargantuan temples and what were clearly cities where people lived and did business. 20,000 years of history in two and a half hours! We both agree we prefer the elegant simplicity of human design from the earliest examples, oh say, 4000 BC. On the other hand, the “modern,” machine-made architecture of Syracuse, such as the Basilica Madonna delle Lacrime and most of the buildings we saw in the new city don’t hold a candle to the small scale, hand-made ambiance of Ortigia.

We seek out a city library and are given a passionate tour of the works and artifacts of Elio Vittorini, the beloved writer from Syracuse. We read several pages of his anti-fascist novel, Conversations in Sicily for which he was jailed when it was published in 1941. The librarian asks to take our picture reading the book to post on Facebook. I guess they don’t get too many tourists showing that much interest.

And we have two of the best meals yet at a small tavern with six tables, La Gazza Ladra, where the food is slow cooked during the day by the owner and his zia and served from a display case at night: artichoke frittata, caponata, the best eggplant parmesan ever, subtly flavored meat balls, fried eggplant balls, indescribably delicious sausage, artichoke and potato soup, the most tender of pork roast, and biancomangare—a medieval dessert. What a delightful anomaly: no pasta or pizza! The Slow Food movement thrives in Italy and I want to learn more about it.

We spend a fascinating hour conversing with the Norwegian we met at the marina whom we meet by chance in a bar, aka coffee shop. Turns out he has spent his life as a documentary film maker and started an online magazine that reviews independent documentary films. He had just made an offer on an apartment and was on his way to see another, so we ask to join him, which is such a treat as we’ve been curious about the inside of these ancient buildings.

We watch one of his films and are intrigued by the ideas of this Norwegian philosopher who espouses ecohumanism, that is, a return to nature as the solution to all our woes as humans.

This interplay of man and nature, and man’s “head” and “heart”, clearly defines ecohumanism as a movement to address the failures in society . . . due to failures of presence, of personal connection with the all planetary systems.

We couldn’t agree more! We watch a very personal and passionate film called Sugar Blues created by his partner about the evils of sugar. We vow on the spot to eat healthier.

Which brings me to our boat, Cascade II, where on our second morning here has no shore power so no heat. It gets colder and colder as the day wears on, so we seek out an AirBnB to take refuge. When we arrive, the heat doesn’t work. Impossible, you might say, but true. After a couple of hours and the loan of a space heater, we’re finally warm again. OK, it’s Sicily in January, so what did we expect? Thankfully, on the following day at the marina, we run an extension chord to the boat, bypassing the broken electrical pedestal, and have power and heat once again. On our last day, we discover that the bridge connecting our pontoon to the main dock is broken so we must be ferried to our boat by dinghy.

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After nine days, we find we are ready to leave. Perhaps it’s too much city—where is nature among all this concrete? Perhaps we’re wondering what our place is in all of this Italian culture and history. We came here to explore a more lively place with a wider variety of people, culture, and events. To some extent we found that in the people we met and in osterias that offered grandma’s cooking. We experienced different ways of living, being, and remembering, and saw present day life set against the backdrop of goddesses, temples, churches, saints, geniuses, refugees, and everyday folk. Whether desired or not, so much of the built history of Italy remains, which provides an intriguing backdrop for exploration but at the same time appears to limit the possibilities for new expression and change.

I suppose you could say our epiphany is this: while we each have our own beliefs, history, customs, and lifestyles, we all share basic instincts and desires that bind us more than divide us. The rest is layer upon layer of societal and cultural conditioning and prejudice, which often leads to the many unwanted consequences of what we call “progress.”

CASCADE II S2:E3

12/27/2021

Merry Christmas from across the pond! Here we are having a Christmas lunch on the beach, a sumptuous meal of seafood and “deconstructed cannoli” for dessert—that was a first!

In this episode, Will takes the helm on most of the writing while I narrate our six-day trip across Sicily through pictures, which tooks us to Catania, Caltagirone, Enna, Cefalu, and Agrigento.

CENTER

The piazza is the living room for all the tiny apartments in the Old City, “il Centro.” Once the newspaper, one’s manna, the town cryer, and the talk of the town occurred here, as women daily went to the market and old men sat and kibitzed, or the Church emptied its pews onto the world. Now it’s more a carnival, festooned with the season’s mini-Christmas kiosks, too-loud pumped in music, and children playing hide-and-seek with the decorated central tall fir as home base. The size of the piazza was in proportion to the prestige of the Duomo, the city’s grandest church—think the Square of St. Peter’s, which is actually an oval—or town hall or both.

From this regularized geometry of a place leads out vias, corridors as strands of Medusa’s hair in every which direction, in every un-geometry imaginable: often tiny, narrow apertures to the sky, clouds of laundry strewn from the multitude of balconies (who has room for a dryer, let alone the funds to run it? or is it that the smell of fresh air on clothes is too irresistible?), and the inevitable house-marm shuffling about in a sleeveless, flower print coverall that is the forerunner to our apron. And then there are the outdoor markets, selling all manner of food items!

And so begins the non-center, the non-focal point, the non-pure where the other side of life occurs: messy, fragrant, delicious. Yes, you can have a caffe or pasta in the piazza, but it’s a different taste. You want to be tucked into the bowels of a millenia-old ristorante, low barrel-vaults overhead, and disappearing windy stairs that lead to other levels in the maze—a small turn-out/tilt-in window giving an unexpected glimpse of the alley or valley or sea way down the hillside. 

Sicily’s tallest hilltown, Enna, coincidently or fatefully, resides at the geometric center of Sicily, and according to the ancients, is the center of the Mediterranea…and the world. Settled in pre-historic times due to its commanding defensive plateau, it’s unclear if the idealized “center” also spoke of the sacredness of the place. The Torre di Frederic II marks the spot, which we attempted but failed to summit—at night—as we followed twisted back alleys ending in many dead-ends. Purists, aware of the changing, eroding shoreline now say Sicily’s center is some half a kilomter away. At the other end of the city, is the Castello di Lombardia and Rocca di Cerere upon which once stood a Greek temple to Cerce, the goddess of fertility. With its commanding 360-degree view, Etna looming large in the distance, we ask ourselves, “At what point is center a spot versus a state of mind?” I’m reminded of Galileo being accused of heresy for stating the earth was not the center of the universe. 

The newer Sicilian suburbs are more generous of scale and accommodation. And, like so many others, completely devoid of people-cognizant geometries and integrated lives beyond the flicker of familial relationships that can be kindled within its cold walls. The car has won out, the people sidelined into the margins of what is left over after the roads have made themselves dominant. 

SWITCHBACKS 

The interior of Sicily is a book title by Tracy Kidder: Mountains Beyond Mountains. Our little Renault chugs on its way up and coasts on its ways down, over and over again, uphill the view once tight and focused on the next hairpin turn, and downhill breathtakingly open and expansive when floating above the verdant valley below—be careful, easier than ever to take your eyes off the road here! The sporty five-speed is fun to shift and drive, so it’s easy to appreciate the growth of the little sportscars and road rallies following the war. Forest green were British makes, blue French, silver German, and, of course, red cars were Italian. A criss-cross of masking tape across your headlamps and your car was good to go to race around the countryside. The lines on the road are merely wasted paint; Europeans will pass you even if you can read the license plate of the car in the other lane coming at you. Passed cars nudge as close to the guardrail as possible, just to allow a few more inches of passing space. The difference between the performance cars and the little cars like ours is quite clear when everything is a two-lane road. 

Near the mountain tops, sudden stops are necessary but not that hard to do on the uphill, as you might be enveloped by a herd of cattle or sheep, both announced by large bells draped around the neck. The sheepdogs are quite capable. With sheep you won’t necessarily see the herder, who is chatting away on his cellphone. Cattlemen are different, noisy, arms spread wide to appear big and seemingly present a roadblock to the steer that is teetering as it ponders him. The soil is rocky, the earth very red in color, the (one of a bazillion) farmhouse ruins usually markers on large open plateaus.

 

Massive monocrop agriculture under miles and miles of semi-clear plastic, this being eggplant

Downland, the still-monoculture ground covers are lush shades of green over tidal waves of rolling hills, with tractors heeled over and chugging along, even on Sundays. Olive and fruit trees are grandchildren festooned before the way-back farmhouses, some enormous from a dozen expansions, most in hollow ruins of both buildings and farm walls, stone walls several feet thick. Orange trees are positively dripping with the most luscious oranges you’ve ever tasted.

In the south, the contrast is stark: rugged construction with squat old trees in the foreground, and rows and rows of greyish razor-thin plastic “greenhouses” over PVC pipe arches. Not quite a moonscape but an otherworldly mechanized landscape nonetheless. Coupled with the senseless, mostly plastic trash at the sides of many roadways, it can bring a charged tear to the eye. The land and its people fight a kind of poverty that is too fast becoming acceptable. Or, if the land has always been taken for granted, the views—both seen and internal—of some of us foreigners is just catching up to that fact. The unkemptness of the place has always been a part of Italy’s charm; somehow we do not allow the modern convenience of a non-traditional material to be a part of that picture. 

Sicily up and down is a very large place, very rural, very farmed, the very first greenhoused fruits of its labor reaching Europe before other places have even planted. Buy your inexpensive, fresh and tasty food often—it’s ripe and ready to eat now and passed over in a few days. 

COLD, OLD, GOLD 

Tasha and are now unused to mid-range temperatures. Like the unbearable cold I felt in damp Virginia, old buildings made of stone hold their cold just like they can hold their heat—a long, long time. This being the off-season, B&B owners are not in the habit of keeping rooms warm, so we have spent hours reading aloud in bed Beautiful Ruins by Jess Walter to transport ourselves elsewhere to warm up. For the third time, we arrived and the owner, showing us around, said simply nessun riscaldamento—no heat. A pale cloud comes over you, like when we’d arrive at some places in the mid-afternoon, mid-siesta, when most shops and restaurants are closed. We realize we are either out of step or out of time: purposefully positioned ghosts that, if the shells of the buildings can see us, don’t acknowledge the same.

We leave the centers then and head for the woods, to refresh and connect with nature, as suggested to us by our host, Nicolo lo Piccolo: farmer, beekeeper, former president of the association of independent organic famers in Sicily, and an all-around outstanding guy. When we returned from Caltagirone that evening, finding only a small Sicilian street food vendor open, he asks, Havete mangiato?, at which point he prepares a homemade meal and offers us his recently cured olives and wine, and we managed to spend a couple of hours conversing in his broken English and our broken Italian.

The next day, he suggests a hike where we find one of the islands largest cork trees, cork unexpectedly being just the unbelievably thick outer bark with no obvious place for nutrients to flow, whereas the insides are dense and hard. 

BEAUTIFUL RUINS

We drive four hours on windy mountainous roads to the northern seaside town of Cefalu known for its high rock fortress looming over the city and its Norman Cathedral. Unfortunately, although it was only 11:30, we were unable to ascend as it would have taken us an hour, and of course, they close at 1:30 for siesta! Walking a kilometer from our car to our AirB&B in the center of the old city was unexpected, as was the three hours it took to warm the place up. We did have a wonderful seaside meal adjacent to an ancient aqueduct before leaving the next day for the south coast.

Our last stop is the Valley of the Temples in Agrigento, site of the best preserved Greek temples in the Mediterranean. And this being a nonlinear story, we speculate on what carries forward in time from those massive monuments, designed by architects and built by tens of thousands of slaves, perched on hilltops overlooking the sea. No longer a fortress city protecting its 200,000 inhabitants, 20,000 of them citizens, from attacking armies—Cartheginians, Selinuntines  Romans, Normans—(who can keep track?) but today a tourist attraction inspiring awe at the sheer size of these massive temples to Zeus (at 370’x184’x65’ feet, it is the largest temple ever built), Concordia (counted as one of the best preserved temples in the world, precisely because it was later converted into a Christian church), and Hercules (of unusually elongated proportions). How did they move those massive blocks of sandstone up to the top of all those Doric columns? We learn they carved u-shaped grooves in each stone which they hoisted up with pullies. Well done boys! And today we wonder, why? A monument to god that nobody can go into? The sheer size of these monuments bespeaks none other than the power of those built it and as a corollary, the lack of power of those who are beholden to those who did, demarcating once again, the haves and have nots. Not much has changed, eh?

Unluckily, the cold snap coincided with a bug Tasha caught (no, it’s not COVID as we were both tested the day we returned), and we’ve spent a week lying low back in the warmth of Cascade II here at Marina di Ragusa. This gave us time to savor in big chunks and linger over the wonderful, slowly-built ending of Beautiful Ruins, as well as watching ongoing episodes of Montalbano, an Italian detective series from the late 90’s, in Italian with subtitles, much of which takes place just up the coast in Punta Secca, which we visited in the last blog.

Next time, we should be writing from Syracuse, an eight hour sail up the coast! Until then, Happy New Year!

CASCADE II S2:E2

Dec 15, 2021

We’ve been in Marina di Ragusa, Italy now for two weeks and are getting used to the rhythm of living on a boat in the Mediterranean as opposed to Maine. Not that much different really—well, except, um, the language, the food, the scenery, the marina, and the weather! Yeah, ok, that’s a lot!

Needless to say, the weather is a lot warmer, although perhaps not as warm as you might think. The first week we were here, there was a steady stretch of howling winds and rain with gusts to 40+ knots, and it routinely blows in the 20s. We’ve also had plenty of warm, sunny days reminiscent of spring and fall. Most of the time we wear jackets, but the wind is pleasant, and the rain usually doesn’t last long…except when it does. We run a heater on the boat most of the time, but just to take off the chill. And sometimes—ok once—we wore shorts!

The marina is huge, one of the largest in the Mediterranean with 800 slips and boats from all over Europe, mostly sailboats. There are many live-aboard boats, usually couples, a number of them with kids. We’ve met a French couple with a teenage son, a young Belgian-Dutch couple who plan to sail in the Volvo 60 around-the-world race, a Swedish couple who made their way here through the French canals, an Italian guy married to a Thai woman, several British couples, and an Austrian single-hander on his way to Fiji.

The first day we arrived, there was a holiday party on the dock for all the live-aboards where we heard many languages spoken. There was plenty of food from local restaurants, and we even had a visit from Santa, who made balloon toys for all the kids, including my half-brother Tyler and Anelise’s kids, Costa and Birdie Bay.

The marina docks are super-wide, and you often see kids racing down on their scooters. There are no finger piers; instead, the boats are tied up stern-to the dock, with two heavy anchors off the bow to hold the boats perpendicular to the dock. The boats are tightly packed together with only fenders separating each boat. It’s quite a system and very common in Europe, allowing you to squeeze in many more boats; think sardine can and you’ll be close.

Cascade II is the one exception in that we are tied bow-to, which means that instead of getting onboard from the transom like other boats, we climb over the bow. Why, you might ask? It’s a hold-over from Dad & Nancy since they felt it allowed for more privacy, which it does. It also means more gymnastics getting on and off the boat.

The boat is extremely comfortable with two aft cabins, a large galley, v-berth, and salon. It has everything you’d want for a live-aboard, distance cruising boat, including myriad custom touches created by my Dad & Nancy over their years of sailing.

Dad & Nancy have been living aboard Cascade II and Cascade, their C&C 36, since 1998 and have cruised extensively in the Caribbean, Mediterranean, Agean, and Azores, until two years ago when they bought a Grand Banks 36, a motorboat of the first order. Given their ages, 83 and 85, they crossed over to the other side when they realized they were no longer up to doing much sailing. Click the link below to see the book they wrote of their travels.

The Wanderings of sv Cascade

APTA, Dad & Nancy’s boat, sits just across the dock from us, so it’s easy to visit. Although we are on pretty different schedules, we manage to overlap with them and share meals, which has been very nice as my Dad is a great cook. One day we biked to the farmer’s market and brought back 5 kilos (11 lbs) of mussels, “de-bearded” them, and then brought them over for wonderful meal. Yesterday we invited them over for a meal in the cockpit in the warm sun.

Unlike a quaint hilltop town with outdoor dining in an ancient stone-walled piazzette that you might think of when you think of Italy, Marina di Ragussa is a modern, concrete summer European destination. Most of the houses have clean lines and are covered in stucco. Some of the larger homes along the water even have small yards, giving it an almost suburban feel.

The grocery store is a 15-minute walk or five-minute bike ride and has great food at low prices. There is of course lots of pasta of all sizes, as well as an abundance of fresh, local fruits and vegetables. Some of the highlights for us have been the huge liter jars of artichoke hearts and sundried tomatoes for just under five dollars, gorgeous fennel bulb and basket of kiwis for a dollar, fresh ricotta, and local sausage. One evening we accompanied a woman at the marina to a small outdoor market where people order organic produce, where we bought fresh arugula, Sicilian mustard greens, mushrooms, and whole wheat bread. And the Tuesday farmer’s market is abundant with local delicacies.

One of our first nights here, we went to a wonderful restaurant and had marinated octopus, grilled fish, and ravioli stuffed with fish topped with shrimp. Another day we went to an agriturismo 15 minutes from the marina where we feasted on a sumptuous meal with everything made from buffalo—mozzarella, burrata (similar to mozzarella but with a creamy inside), salami, steak, and stew, along with fresh tomatoes, pizza, focaccia, and cannoli. Thankfully we were able to take home some leftovers!

Another night we ate an authentic Thai meal at one of the marina restaurants prepared by the Thai woman mentioned above. The cappuccino is great, but the hot chocolate is even better, so thick you have to eat it with a spoon. Will has been harnessing his urge to have a gelato every day, but the double dark chocolate was outstanding. And on Sundays, the enterprising young French boy mentioned above delivers fresh croissants directly to the boat! Yes, the food really is great in Italy, including what we make ourselves given all the wonderful ingredients.

The main piazza is a short walk away and has a number of restaurants and bars, many of which are closed during the winter. This is definitely a tourist town with many houses empty during the off-season, so it feels a little like a ghost town. That said, on warm days there are still plenty of people about, including people kite surfing and, the newest fad, wing foil surfing.

There are beautiful beaches plus miles of walking and biking paths that extend in both directions. The marina office, laundry, and showers, along with a number of restaurants and bars, are all a short walk along the water. And today we brought a speaker and music down to the beach and danced, and then took a quick dip in the Mediterranean!

On Sunday mornings right at the marina gate is a fishing competition to see who can catch the most fish from the cement wall. These men had the most elaborate gear for what seemed like a very docile “sport.”

One day we biked to Punta Secca, a quaint town with a light house where people were gathering on a Sunday afternoon. We were proud of ourselves that we were able to hold a reasonably comprehensible conversation with an old man who wanted to tell us all about fishing.

Another day we took the bus to Santa Croce just inland where we watched kids of all ages arrive for school.

After the heavy rains and winds passed, we decided to take the boat out for a sail. Mostly we were chasing the wind, but for about an hour, the wind came up to 10-15 knots and we took off at 8 knots! It was a nice gentle day to try out the boat for the first time. Navigating in and out of the “slip” was challenging, but with the help of the marina staff nudging the bow around, we made it without any problems. It sure was fun sailing in the middle of December! We plan to sail to Syracuse in January for a month for a change of scenery, so it was good to learn the ropes on a new boat.

Click the link below to see a video captured by someone from the marina, also out for a sail.

Cascade II Out for a Sail

We had the good fortune to overlap with Tyler, now owner of sv Cascade II, and his family. We romped around on the beach, danced with solar lights at the AirBnB where we stayed when Tyler was here, celebrated my birthday, and generally enjoyed being kids with them. They had just spent the past two months living aboard the boat in Siracussa and Marina di Ragussa, with trips to the north when the fierce storms came. We were so delighted to hang out if only briefly, and so very grateful that they are willing to share the boat with family.

Soon we will rent a car for a week for a mere $2/day and do some exploring beyond the local area and get more of a feel for Sicily. Until the next installment, arrivederci!

NIRVANA S2:E1

Nov 23, 2021

With less than week left before we head to Sicily for three months, I feel the need to reflect on the past month before moving on to the next transition. Some people sail through transitions; unless we’re actually sailing, I’m not one of them.

So much has shifted since we moved aboard sv NIRVANA last June—the “ground” under our feet, the surroundings when we “walk out the door,” the mechanics of living from eating and sleeping to pooping and peeing, the “stuff” that’s required for said mechanics, the people we encounter, and temperature inside and out, to name a few. These are all things that strike me deeply and have taken some time to get used to, some more than others.

I’ve been a sailor my whole life and lived aboard a 40’ sailboat for a year when I was 22. I’ve done my fair share of cruising, mostly on my Dad’s C&C 36 and Jeanneau 41 in Europe prior to owning my own boat. I’ve done plenty of day sailing and some cruising in my Sabre 28 in Muscongus Bay and Casco Bay. So I’m not unfamiliar with what it’s like to live aboard a boat, but to do so full-time, with a partner, and as a lifestyle, now that’s new!!!

Newness is great! It keeps me feeling like I’m alive. Since moving aboard, I’ve never had that I-don’t-feel-like-getting-out-of-bed-only-to-do-it-all-over-again-today kind of feeling that I’ve sometimes had when I was working and living in a house. That said, I’m someone who has always tried to make each day count, on some level, if only in my perception of it, which includes values such as gratitude and presence.

On the flip side, I seek comfort and a sense of place like many people, so feeling like I have “found my place” often feels important. Is this my home? Is this it? More and more I’ve come to see my need for a sense of “home” as a moving target and yet another human invention that can take me away from the present. When I drop the whole idea of needing to know—anything—life gets a whole lot simpler. It’s called living in the present.

That said, we’ve been at DiMillo’s on the waterfront for just over a month, and I’m finally beginning to feel like, yes, this is my home. And in a week, we leave for Italy! So for me, it means yet another transition as I continue to stay open and present to it all.

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So let me describe what it’s been like living aboard a 36’ sailboat at a marina in downtown Portland. Some of the upsides include walking to Harbor Fish to get the freshest (and most expensive) fish in town; walking to any number of great restaurants for a delicious meal (yesterday Lebanese, last week Indian, this week Italian); walking along the Eastern Prom, feeling the wind in my face, and seeing some of the beloved islands of Casco Bay—Peaks, Great Diamond, Cushing; connecting with my many friends from the eight years I’ve lived in the area; continuing to dance outside with my dance community; maintaining a wonderful relationship with my 32-year-old son and his wife and my aging mother who all live in town; getting to know like-minded people who also have the desire and fortitude to live aboard their boats all winter; and not the least of which, spending a mere $500/month on rent.

In many ways, living aboard the boat remains a constant from the summer—our beautiful cabin is the same one we’ve enjoyed for months, with its rich teak, cozy settee and v-berth, and functional, compact galley; we still cook in the galley and eat by solar candlelight; and it continues to feel great to be in such close proximity with each other day in and day out.

But in other ways, living aboard at a marina feels very different—instead of being tethered to an anchor or not tethered at all, we are tied to a dock with double dock lines at three corners; instead of rowing ashore we step off the boat onto a float and walk up a ramp; we’re running an electric heater and dehumidifier to keep the chill off and remove condensation; we’ve added a cozy rug and tv to our inventory; we have many more jackets and shoes to layer up when we go ashore; instead of pooping and showering onboard, we walk up the ramp to one of the three bathrooms designated for the over 50 live aboard boats at the marina (there is no pump-out facility during the winter, and they shut off the water on the docks so we have to run a long hose to our boat to tank up); and then there is the intermittent rolling when certain ferries come and go, apparently depending on the captain as to how much he guns the engines as he makes the turn just outside the marina.

The biggest change is that now we are living inside a literal bubble under our clear shrink wrap. We do this to shed the snow and prevent condensation inside the boat. Because the shrink wrap is clear, it acts as a greenhouse on sunny days so we actually have our cockpit back as another room. After Will got practice helping our neighbors with their boat, we borrowed their heavy duty heat gun and did our own. Putting up the frame was easy compared to last year, and the shrinking was not that hard either. At one point, Will was outside and I was inside until he slit the plastic to install the door like crossing into another world.

And oddly, Will and I have been spending more time apart, as we each sometimes go off in separate directions for this or that. Will goes to the hardware store, and I meet up with a friend for an early morning coffee. I go to Saturday and Sunday outdoor dance, and Will spends two days helping another live-aboard shrink wrap his boat. I take my laptop to the upstairs area of DiMillo’s ferry boat restaurant to do work on my computer, and Will drives to Boston to meet with an architecture client.

As long as the work remains satisfying for both of us, we will continue to do it in small doses. In my case, after thirty years doing technical writing for software companies (read blech), I finally feel like I’m doing something that matters—helping a wonderful nonprofit called Raising Voices in Uganda create online learning based on their highly successful, in-person training programs that help prevent violence against women and children. Now that’s something I can get behind! As I’m only working ten to fifteen hours per week in the off-season, it still feels like a worthy pursuit. As for Will, he can design buildings in his sleep and “I enjoy helping people through what is often experienced as more stressful than it needs to be, and if it’s a small project and doesn’t feel like work, I’m happy to do it.”

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There have surely been some highlights in the past month. The first was Will’s birthday party at the end of October where we invited all the live-aboards we’d met to gather on the dock by our boat for conversation, squash soup, haddock chowder, and artichoke dip. There must have been 20 people, including friends from shore, such that we had to keep our wits about us to not back up too quickly on the narrow dock and land in the water when we started dancing!

We finally went to the Portland fish auction, which our friend Barry with a Freedom 38 told us about more than a year ago and Will has been wanting to attend. After years of experience, Barry knows just what to look for when bidding on fish for his buyers. The auction itself now takes place online with only a few people sitting in the auction room, where the highest bidder gets to buy as much of that species desired until the next round of bidding. While the auction itself wasn’t all that exciting, learning about the fish and the auction was more so.

It was an interesting slice of life and frankly, a sad commentary on the state of Maine fisheries. In a giant waterfront warehouse were a pathetic 4000 pounds of fish in twenty or so crates, a mere 1% of the 300,000 pounds that used to be caught and sold in Portland on a daily basis. You might think this is because the catch is down due to overfishing, but no. Rather, the Maine lobstermen’s association has such a stronghold on the economy of the working waterfront that they have convinced the legislature that they are the only fishing vessels that should be allowed to offload lobsters in Maine. As a result, commercial fishing boats, which catch lobster as a bi-catch in their gill nets and draggers, are not allowed to sell lobsters in the state. Given this restriction, all but a handful of commercial fishing boat from Maine have decided it’s easier and more economical to simply take their boats and entire catch to Massachusetts, which doesn’t have this restriction. This means hundreds of millions of dollars’ worth of fish are being sold out of state and then brought back in Maine from Massachusetts! The fish auction—along with its employees, sellers, and buyers—that used to be a thriving business is now a shadow of its former self and is on the brink of demise. And this is in the state that boasts the best commercial fishing ground on the East coast.

To watch a video of our time at the fish auction, click here.

Portland is a fascinating combination of working waterfront, upscale businesses, tourism, commercial development, historic establishments, and lots and lots of boats, from small racing dinghies to tankers.

Early one morning I spent wandering around with a camera when the sun was low and glowing, and the fall air was brisk and alive. For me it was all about the juxtapositions of these elements of place. It was a glorious morning of seeing Portland with fresh eyes.

One evening after dinner we wandered onto one of the gritty piers that processes lobster bait. Across the street is one of the newest hotels at the far end of Commercial St. Attracted by the roof deck lights, we walked in, rode the elevator to the top floor for a look see, and ended up sitting outside in front of a fire pit where we ordered “deconstructed pumpkin cheesecake.” It was truly outrageous, the ambiance was super hip, and we felt like we were in Barcelona. This is just one example of Portland’s dual between retaining an active working waterfront—which it’s had for centuries—and the fierce pressure by developers to capitalize on the waterfront as housing prices soar.

Another day we walked down to RiRa, one of the half dozen or so Irish pubs in town, where we watched Will’s favorite soccer team—Liverpool—play Arsenal. Will is a big fan and played and coached for many years, including a brief professional stint after college. It was yet another slice of life where blue-collar folk go to enjoy a pint. At the same place, we sat next to a guy from Zimbabwe who has been in Portland for a year and a half. Another remarkable thing about the city is that it has been a welcoming city for immigrants, refugees, and asylum-seekers, so there are many people from other countries who have chosen Portland as their home. Among the many services, Portland offers free English classes for all immigrants. At the same time, Portland also has a large homeless population as well.

Though we love living on the boat, we have been missing being in nature, so we spent a couple of nights at Hidden Valley Nature Center in Jefferson. This time we stayed in their newest hut, Joe & Doe hut, named after my uncle and aunt who have given tirelessly to the organization since its inception. We were delighted to be there for a celebration that honored them and then stay at the brand new timber-frame hut with a cozy woodstove and spacious ambiance. It was a delightful time on land and in the woods…and it gave us more inspiration for building a tiny house of our own…

And now it’s time to pack some bags, put the boat to bed for winter, and fly across the ocean to Italy, where we’ll be staying on my father’s former sailboat, now owned by my half-brother Tyler. Let the winter games begin!

NIRVANA S1:E10

Oct 19, 2021

Almost three weeks have gone by, and we’re now settled into our winter slip at DiMillo’s Marina on Commercial St. in downtown Portland. It’s been quite a transition from life at sea to life with one foot on land and one on the boat. Whereas previously we rowed our dinghy to get ashore from a mooring or anchor, now we step out of our boat onto a dock and drive the car when we need to get somewhere on land. It sure is different, we’re getting used to it, and so far so great! Here’s how we got here.

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The night we arrived back at our mooring, we got a text from a friend offering us her spot at a log cabin in a remote setting near Bethel, and we jumped at the chance. Two hours from Portland, this spot is an amazing oasis in the middle of 600 acres of woods with a pond, three houses, a 1902 log cabin that was moved from another location on the property, a sauna, and gardens. The creator of this compound is Jim, a Vietnam vet/engineer/back-to-the-lander who bought the property in the 70s and has lived there with his family ever since. His daughter now lives in the main house and rents the cabin on AirBnB (https://www.airbnb.com/rooms/1205528) while he occupies his time designing and building his son a round house that will hang above the tree line from a 30’ steel pole. In years past, Jim built Maine’s tallest snowman and snowwoman (http://www.bethelmaine.com/snow-people); a hydroelectric dam that not only provided electricity to the property but put three kids through college back when the electric company still paid people for that sort of thing; a round house bermed into the hillside with a cement roof cast over snow; a tree house with a helix stair wrapping around the tree; and a mile long zip line that drapes above the pond. We so enjoyed hiking around the property looking for mushrooms, sitting in front of the woodstove, cooking tuna steaks with fresh peaches picked on the property and fresh eggs and herbs from the garden, and taking an icy dip in the pond after our sauna. Ah, Maine, the way life should be!

The glorious weather at the beginning of October sent us back out to Casco Bay, first to Jewell Island, where the first night we were there with just one other small sailboat. The walks ashore on Jewell are wonderful amidst the WWII cement relics that litter the island like strange ghosts. In addition to lounging in the sunshine, Will worked on extracting the old, leaking hot water heater only to discover he needed some different tools, so we made do without. As more and more boats arrived to take advantage of the fine summer-like weather, we decided to move on.

Having sailed by it many times, we decided to pick up a mooring at neighboring Chebeague Island, one of the largest year-round inhabited islands in Casco Bay. I reached out to Eliza who has a house there and whom I’ve met a couple times through a friend. On our walk around the island, we met several people who knew her and finally made contact. She directed us to her house through the woods and met us on the path, which took us by two yurts that she rents of AirBnB, one of which is an authentic Mongolian yurt (https://airbnb.com/rooms/50666392). The island is also home to the famed Chebeague Island Inn and restaurant, where we had a wonderful meal on the last weekend of their season. What a treat! Rowing back under the stars in the cool October night felt magical and firing up the propane heater was pretty special too.

The next day we spent cleaning the boat of the mold that accumulates with so much moisture. As the wind picked up, we decided it was time to head back and finally take care of the hot water tank. The sail in 20 knots of wind was one of the most exhilarating we’ve had, where we hit 9.5 knots as we surfed down a wave into Whitehead Passage past Cushing and Peaks. It was quite a spectacular last sail of the season!

We picked up a mooring at Peaks and had a nice walk ashore, complete with a delicious brick-oven pizza from a mobile food-truck. Being so close to Portland, Peaks has such a different vibe from the other islands we’ve visited—nowhere near as remote and way more “hip.” That evening, there was even a wedding on the island where the music punctuated the evening with the sharp notes of oldies music wafting out over the water. On our walk, we saw the bridal party on the beach for a photo shoot.

Rather than spending another week on our rolly mooring, we decided to check out Spring Point Marina in South Portland. The marina is just next to our mooring and is one of the newest and largest marinas in Maine, chock-a-block with mostly motorboats. As luck would continue to have it for us, the dockmaster is a former classmate of my kids, and he was more than happy to extend us the end-of-season rate, which was a great way to ease our way back ashore. Given the good night sleeps combined with the reasonable rates, we decided on the spot to sell the mooring and use Spring Point as our base in the shoulder seasons before and after DiMillo’s.

First order of business was to replace the hot water tank, which thankfully went reasonably smoothly. Since we are now plugged into shore power, the reward is hot water coming out of both faucets all the time—a significant upgrade from the summer when we only had hot water after running the engine. Over the next week, we spent much of the time ashore—hiking in Bath with a friend who was an exchange student in Sweden with me in 1976 and whom I haven’t seen in 40 years; helping my cousin clean out her father’s 1800s farmhouse; and visiting with family and friends, which is after all why we are here in Portland as opposed to say, the Bahamas, which might yet be in our future. The pull of a land base in the off seasons that feels more like a boat is still there as we continue to look at real estate, but it waxes and wanes like the moon.

And today, five days into our stay at DiMillo’s, we’re settling into our new home, which includes hot showers ashore, walks to the fish market and along the Eastern Prom, running heaters to stay warm, and getting to know the almost fifty other hearty souls who are choosing to live on their boats as the temperatures drop. Our neighbor has already helped us fix a leak we’ve had for some time so now our bilge is dry for the first time all summer!

With this transition now complete, we realize it’s time for Season 2 of Nirvana, namely winter, which will include three months in Sicily aboard Cascade II, my father’s former Jeanneau 41. To be continued . . .

NIRIVANA S1:E9

Sept 30, 2021

As summer has drawn to a close, the equinox has ushered in fall, and the equilux has pivoted our days to more darkness than light, we’ve begun our transition from “out cruising” to “back home,” whatever that means. As the land beckons, the sea remains our ground; as such, the definition is still unfolding.

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After two days and nights at the beautiful Jewell Island in Casco Bay, we reluctantly head back to our home port in South Portland, where we experience the rocking and rolling of motorboat wake as a more-or-less constant throb, the Portland skyline in the distance, a stark contrast to the tree-lined anchorages we’ve experienced all summer. After a wonderful welcome home meal at the nearby marina restaurant with my cousin, the next stop is Bellaire Rd. to pick up our car in preparation for our drive north. The first step into my house is a shock: the strange unfamiliarity of the oh-so familiar space and things that have been home for more than six years.

After the first hour of sitting on the living room couch, there is an uncanny sinking into place, like putting on a well-worn pair of shoes after years of their sitting in the back of the closet. “Oh, I remember these! But do I still want or need them now that I’m X, Y, and Z (fill in the blank: a live-aboard sailor, in partnership, on the move)? This much is clear: the collection of “stuff” that has accumulated in my life is partially a product of our culture, partially my acquisitive nature in my attempt at creating a home, and partially a function of having the space to allow it to accumulate. The smaller one’s space, the less one collects because the less one can collect. Living aboard the boat, I haven’t missed any of it.

That first night we spend in the basement apartment that I’d used as an AirBnB for a year, pre-covid. We shower, do laundry, collect the mail, drive to the supermarket, and buy a propane heater in anticipation of colder weather. Moving through space surrounded by a tin can, navigating on asphalt roads with yellow lines, stopping at red lights, and flowing in and out of buildings all feel oddly dissociative. Our bodies know the moves, but our senses are somehow disengaged. There is a form of numbness that creeps in. Where is the wind on our face, the changing view as the boat gently moves through 10, 20, 30 degrees at anchor in the slowly shifting wind, the ospreys squealing overhead with the sky as backdrop, the varying expanse of vision from the near shore to the distant islands to the far horizon, the gentle tinkling of the water as the tide and wind lap the hull? These are feelings unexperienced on land.

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When on land, almost everything in the “world” is man-dominated, and so much is man-made that any nature is relegated to the margins; clearly man bends everything to his will and feels no remorse, likely since he has “god-given” dominion over all of creation. Frightening. Worse, when you’ve been immersed in the endless variations and compositions of beauty available everywhere in the island world, you realize that man’s attempts at beautifying things is so sadly shallow. Because everyone is so wrapped up in such trappings, we rarely question the path our “progress” has taken us (how did we get here? –David Byrne), let alone challenge it.  

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We drive north, connect with family over the loss of my uncle, drive south. We drive north for a music festival, connect with old friends and acquaintances, drive south. We pay my mother a surprise visit in her small Portland apartment, which feels ever so much more the right size than my house. We spend a couple of nights at a small anchorage on Cushing Island two miles away in a partially successful attempt to avoid the rolling. We go ashore on this private island with the permission of Will’s friend who owns a house there and have a fascinating conversation with the island caretaker of the past 16 years. We see Portland Head Light through the lens of one of the gazebos built by the military in years gone by and have a new appreciation of this seemingly off-limits island.

We return to our mooring to the sound of a loud motor and drilling as a huge crane installs yet another dock at Spring Point Marina for another thirty boats. We take a friend for an afternoon sail and choose Diamond Cove as a different nearby destination to avoid the noise and rolling. The next morning, we awaken to ferries coming and going and jack hammering on shore. We motor around the corner to Cow Island where we hear teens whooping and hollering ashore as they practice leadership and cooperation skills.

And then, we have a glorious ten-mile sail to The Goslings, near Harpswell, where we spend four beatific nights in a quiet anchorage that we share with only a few boats coming and going. We run out of water and motor four miles in 20 knots with gusts to 25 to Paul’s Marina to tank up, and then return to our quiet anchorage, which remains remarkably calm despite the wind. Instead of the forecasted rain, the next day we row ashore in what feels like a sunny summer day to the small, protected islands and explore the trees, mushrooms, plant life, and distant shoreline trail along Lower Goose Island, and then bushwhack our way across the island back to the near shore. We enjoy the rain as it finally pelts the dodger and hatches overhead, enjoying the perfectly geometric patterns the raindrops make as they swirl on the smooth surface above our heads in the V-berth. (Click here for video.) Life feels real again.

We’re invited to a friend’s house for lunch in nearby Brunswick, so we motor four miles to South Freeport where we’re picked up by friends and drive to her lovely farmhouse and feast on a wonderful meal. We get a hot shower ashore at the marina before rowing back to the boat, where we hang on an empty mooring along with the cormorants, enjoying this harbor for the third time.

Will dissects the freshwater system in our ongoing attempt to identify a leak, which he finally does: a rusted hot water tank. We enjoy an afternoon sail in 15 knots of wind with my son, daughter-in-law, and grand-dog, and then have a glorious meal in the cockpit under solar lights. That night, we run out of water only three days after filling our tank, so we head back to South Portland to try and deal with this now pressing issue.

So we are back on our mooring once again, this time with several days of north wind, which feels a bit less rolly than the prevailing south-westerlies, combined, perhaps, with less boat traffic. Will prepares to extract the rusty hot water heater and replace it with a spare from his old boat. We drive to the hardware store and stock up on food. We have dinner with a friend and visit with family. We consider taking a slip at the neighboring marina before moving into our winter slip. We contemplate exploring neighboring islands while the weather is still relatively mild. We think about going to a rustic hut in the woods. We fire up the propane heater for the first time to take off the chill and hunker down for one more night in our now cozy cabin. We have just over two weeks until we move into our slip at DiMillo’s and just over two weeks of this period of transition. We have a disquieting sense of being “between worlds.”

At the same time, we have the profound realization that as soon as we attempt to define it, name it, we’ve limited our experience of it, whatever “it” is. Instead, the closest to a definition we’ve arrived at is “we’ll know it when we see it”—about home, about what to do next, and about pretty much anything we choose to give our attention to. And that feeling of knowing is fluid and ever-changing; it comes and goes, like the weather, wind, and tides. Trying to pin it down in any way that remains fixed is merely the mind’s attempt at creating solidity, certainty, and predictability, in our very human but futile attempt at defining what is inherently unpredictable—life itself. And yet, with all its unpredictability, our lives remain an adventure of the first order, as long as we stay open to all of it. And we are reminded every day that doing it in partnership is a gift of a lifetime—for both of us.